Avryl making me angry

Today Avryl made me so angry that I scolded her badly. I dun wanted to show bad temper to her, but she really naughty that she dun let me clean her after shit. End up the bed sheet and my dress were dirtied with her shit.

Luckily when she woke up from nap had forgotten the scold, no showing me bad face.

Miracle not happened

Well, I know hoping for miracle is naive, but when we human can do nothing, hoping for miracle is the only thing we can.

However miracle is not always happens, it didn't happened on little baby TarnTarn. She just passed away today. So sad. One lucky thing was she got a very good family. I guess she was happy of her life, although it's too short for her.

We should treasure every moment with our family. I love all of you!!

Unlucky

I just read a blog by a mum of a one year plus baby girl, TarnTarn. The latest post showed that she was uncured and been asked to stay home to wait for the time to come. At that time, I just felt that's another unlucky case. Then I click to the first post of the blog, it was the day TarnTarn born.

I keep reading from the days she born, mid of Dec 08, wanted to know when and how she found had leukemia. From Dec 08, Jan 09, Feb 09 etc. she looked adorable. A very cute little girl that keep smiling, with a caring family too. Like other babies, she grown day by day, from lying on the bed till roll over, till sitting up, till standing... Until somewhere Aug or Sep 09, swelling was found on few parts of her body. From that onwards, doc announced that she got leukemia and she went thru so many chemo-therapies. But still you can see her smiling face even with the needles on her body everywhere.

My tears cant help when I continue reading it. Until the latest post, which was yesterday, doc told the parents to bring TarnTarn back. No point to make her more suffer with those unhelpful medicines and therapies.

It was really unlucky and sad story. The little baby just celebrated her first birthday on Dec 09, soon she will say bye bye to everyone in her life. It seems really unfair and pity. But what can we do? Besides uncontrollable crying and feeling deep sad, at the same time I felt the toughness of TarnTarn and her parents. They spent their limited time happily instead of complaining.

I dunno how to continue this post. Hopefully there's miracle happens on TarnTarn. God bless!

February 2010

First week of February just past, it's fast that time flies. Avryl is now 10 months and 1 week old. Maybe due to looking at her everyday, so dun feel much changes on her. Her little teeth at the bottom start coming out, but the progress not very fast.

Darling's birthday just past few days ago, dun have a really nice celebration with him, too bad! This few days I start to understand why my love to him is so deep so deep. Because I can feel that he loves me so much too. Besides my parents, I know that no one else will love me like he does. So I love you too, darling!

Chinese New Year coming in another week, hopefully it will be a great one. At the same time, Valentine's Day coming also. Wish to do something for darling on that day, but still have no ideas what should i do or what should i give.

We already signed the S&P for our house, but we not yet pay the down payment :p Wish that we could move to the house asap. So trying to search for all cheap and affordable furniture, electrical appliance and cheap reno as well. Must work really really hard to move to OUR house.

Next will also need to plan for Avryl's 1st year birthday, it's around the corner too.