Selfish

I think everyone is selfish... Everything that we do, we do it for a purpose... and that purpose is what you want... an outcome that you want, not anyone else... even if for example, I want my daughter to become discipline, though it's for her good, but it's still what I want... so I really think that everyone is selfish., please don't tell that you are not...

I hoping so much for privacy... when I was young and staying with my parents, I cant have fully privacy... thus I always hoping for more privacy when I'm getting older and especially when I have my own family... that's why the first day talk about marry, I already suggested to have our own house... Unfortunately, our financial at that time was still unstable... so now I really wish to have my HOME

Parents in law maybe think that I don't like to stay with them... like I said, everyone is selfish... they wish that they can spend more time with their son and grandchild, but at the same time i wish that we could have our own life without letting them to see it... it maybe sounds weird... for me, it's all about privacy... I dun mean that my in law will touch my things or peek my diary or anything, but when it comes to some 'private activity', it's really inconvenient to me...

I'm selfish, I know... I always wanted too much... that's greedy at the same time... I'm trying to get what I want, yes, all, at the same time...

Day that darling not around

I think I should start to blog more... especially when darling was not around... so that he can read what had happened when he is not around...

but I seems like prefer to talk about my feelings more than things that happen... i guess that's the reason no one like to read my posts... seems like ppl love to read daily life more than others... anyhow i will just type whatever comes to my mind...

Life is hard, it's not what I always imagine... work as a boss, I have to take care my employees and that's not easy... live as a wife, I have to be caring but not superstitious... money is really a big issue in life... I have to face this... I feel so stress when the financial is not positive... yet I feel like cant do anything... sometimes I felt like giving up this business as I feel that it tied me up... without this business I might be able to earn more... that sounds silly... I know...

luckily there's still sparks of life, like Avryl my sweet heart... though sometimes she did something made me angry, but when looking to her innocence eyes my anger will gone... I guess that's why darling said I always contradict...

I wish...

I wish i could travel more... i really likes to travel, even by just looking at the photos of friends at different countries already made me happy... well, so many places i wanted to visit... the world is so big and nice, it's really a waste if we just staying in our own comfort home... but now i have baby, it really made me less chances to travel around... thinking in another way, i have children earlier when they grown up i still can travel around, right? optimistic thinking...

Like my parents, they have spent most of the time taking care 3 of us... now my father almost 60 years old, he only been to Singapore. I really must work hard to earn more, so that at least can bring my parents to oversea before i miss the chance.

My destination:

much more

 

New life... new challenge

Boring Monday... darling starts working in new company, without expecting... Well, I expect him to start by tomorrow...

I guess my new life begins... darling's new job required him to travel very often to south Malaysia... I kept struggling before he made the decision... after all, I think I just cant reject the devil's invitation... I'm really not sure am I making the right decision this time to put myself in such situation which no one believes I can handle... from the time we pak tor, it's already seems like I never want him to leave from my side (sight? perhaps...) but now for the sake of making life, I felt that I had no choice and also it's time to challenge my trust to him, as well as his sincerity to me...

I take the challenge, and I actually believe I can handle it well. So just let the time tells the truth!

Early July 10

While waiting for my darling's interview, I'm here doing nothing with my laptop that couldn't search any availble wifi network at Kelana Jaya Centre Point... sigh... So i decided to blogging without posting... of course when I back to office with my internet access I will post it...

Life goes on though darling haven't get a job... Actually I'm quite enjoy this few weeks despite of lack in expensing power... at least could spend more time with darling as I know this wont be a long time... My little princess also quite enjoy with daddy staying home recently... she will woke up earlier than usual (coz mummy always sleep till late no point waking up too early, smart huh?) and wait daddy to carry her downstairs and play with her toys and grandma...

I'm not sure Avryl considered slow learner or quick learner... she can imitates what we doing very fast, after seeing once she already can imitate and did it by herself... but when comes to talking, it's really makes us headache... until today, 15 months and 2 weeks old, she still dun talk... she can speak only simple words, like 'mama, papa, mai(sometimes meaning buy but sometimes meaning dun want in hakka), bai, na'... I guess that's all she can speak... but she dun like to use those word, she never call me or daddy... when we come back from outside she will smile and walk to you but not calling you... I dun use the phrase that she dun like to talk, coz she actually 'talks' alots but in her own language... when we try to teach her on words, she did concentrate on listening and look at your mouth shape but she dun try to speak it... Well, I put it as she has high self esteem, she will only talk when she very sure she can speak it correctly... oh ya, one more word that she can speak is 'coca-cola'... sigh...

About my new house, we just sent the defect list to the management and it tooks about 1 month to be done. After that will start painting by self... hopefully we can do it then can save the money of hiring ppl do painting... We bought a refridgerator at Maybank Treat Fair by installment... Good news that we got a sponsor for 1 unit of air-con... so not much else left coz I already try my best on cutting the cost, like darling said we just need to get the essential things to move in first... those 'nice to have' things can hold on... the most costly to us will be the kitchen cabinet... as now we plan to do a wet kitchen, that will request more budget... this is my new kitchen plan

I draft it myself, so it might not look nice... the wall in between actually with a door and a window but I dunno how to put it on :p basic idea almost like that la... haha...

Well, will draft another post on my house list checking... please support and sponsor on which you could ya ;)

Stressful post...

It's been some time i had not blogging... busy with students exam and my new house...

ya, i had got my key few weeks ago... dun sound exciting? few weeks ago i was really excited... but now the stress had overwhelmed everything... well, i do wish to move in early, but everything is about money... collecting the key already spent thousand over...

darling already cut down most of the unnecessary or so called not-so-urgent renovation, but still has lots to spend... luckily we managed to find kitchen expert that can pay by easy payment yet affordable... but lighting and some others electrical stuffs cant avoid but to pay in cash... which we are really really short of.

about my lovely daughter, recently i found that she is so lonely... she will always disturb my younger bro and end up scolded by my bro... so pity her that she is just 1 year old, but my bro always yelled at her... i wish i could take care her more, i wish to spend more time with her and teach her more... but mamy poko and enfagrow are so expensive, so i have no choice but to work harder... i'm trying my best to keep everything in balance... work, family, love and myself...

ok it's time to google stuffs for my new HOME... cheers...

Be Yourself

We always heard ppl telling us to be ourself. But sometimes we will also heard ppl telling us to adapt the environment. Does both of this contradict? I'm not sure also.

For me, I think that to be myself is very important. Sure we need to adapt environment. But what do environment means? The surrounding? So to adapt the surrounding do we need to change? Ya, certain behavior maybe need to be changed. For example if you working under a very efficiency environment, you need to do things accordingly and punctually. 

Then does adapt to environment need to change our personality? If you are a person who very stingy, but working with ppl who very generous on money, do you need to change and become generous also? Will you be happy to do so?

Everyone is unique. Everyone has his own identity, own believes, own style. But sometimes without realize we change our style to follow others. If things go well, maybe you will come out to be another person with styles and believes that you tend to follow others. If it doesn't goes well, you will lost your identity, 

Maybe I'm very stubborn or I just want to be unique badly. I tend to not follow others, even sometimes i think the others are good. I know that's not a smart way. For example, i always stick to my own way to say hi by typing 'harlo' no matter there are so many various ways nowadays, which maybe a more in trends way. Some ppl will 'adapt' to the way of 'talking' of his best friend or boss. For instance, when text messaging normally he uses 'thx', but maybe the one who text him more often was using 'tq', then he will 'adapt' to that way. For me, i think that's the lost of uniqueness. 

Well, you can say I'm too egoistic, but I just like to be myself. The unique me!

Trip to Singapore ~ Day 1

Darling has started to work in new company. Before starting the world of battle, we went for a short trip at Singapore with Avryl. Had been a long time since the last vacation we had at Phuket on year 2008.

We din actually told anyone about the trip until we confirmed everything. Cause both of the parents will think that bringing Avryl to travel so far is very troublesome. But I personally dun agree with that. However we still did a lots of preparation before the trip, like get ready her ready made food for 3 days.

We took Jetstar flight on 29/4/10, Thurs morning. Avryl was still sleepy in the morning, we din intend to wake her up but she just woke up by herself. She fall at sleep when we were going to KLIA. At the airport before depart, she look sleepy too. Luckily in the flight there was a kid sitting behind of us and played with her so she was not that bored. Of course she did made some noise during the flight, but not that terrible also. We took cab to TsingMay's house from Changi Airport.
When reached at TsingMay's house, I fed Avryl with the porridge my mum cooked night before we left. Knowing that little princess might be tired, we took nap with her. Darling and my princess slept soundly for 3 hours but I just woke up after 1 hour and hanging around the house dunno what to do. It rain heavily in the afternoon, that spoiled my plan of going to the science center, as the science center is just walking distance from the house.

After shower Avryl, we still went to Science Center since we cant figure any better place to go. It was already 4pm when we reached there and it's going to close on 6pm. We had not had lunch yet. So I was forced to had Mc D which just located at the Science Center. We hang around the Science Center for about an hour plus. I had not much idea how fun it is as I dun have any experience to compare. We still manage to watch the sound show which Avryl was considered paying attention during the show.We then went to Orchard Road planning for some shopping. Unfortunately the traffic was so jam and by the time we reached orchard already 730pm. Avryl was asleep in the cab, so we went for dinner at one of the food court. The food was not bad with reasonable price over there. When we finished our dinner, Avryl woke and i ordered porridge for her dinner. But the porridge was terrible salty. Ended up she only had milk and it was already 830pm. We shopping at Somerset but it was merely female fashions. Then we went to Cold Storage and managed to get baby yogurt for Avryl.
We took MRT back and Avryl was quite enjoy on the train. She keep 'talking' to the ppl sat beside us. Tsing May and Reuben were already home when we reached their house. Avryl was not afraid of them at all and trying to talk with them as well. Tsing May and Reuben also surprised that she not afraid of strangers.

To be continue...

Relationship? Marriage?

Had been following a thread from forum discussing on whether to end up her marriage with her registered husband. There was quite some prompt feedback from the members. After reading those comments and stories, I had my own opinion too. But just dun wish to reply in the thread, so just share it over my blog.

The girl who started the topic had registered with her husband for 4 years but not staying together. But according to her, her husband did has affair with other girls before they got registered. And there is another girl who left comment that she is having the same prob. Then there are many members commented that men are all same. I'm really wonder if men are that bad, why we still married them? I dun understand why the 2 girls still registered to the men even they knew the man had affair with other girls, more than once. If you think that men will never change the attitude of having affair with other girls, that means you already accepted it, but why still complaining?

I think most of the women are thinking that marriage can change the men they want. Beware, I'm using the word, they want, not they love. I think if you love the man, you wouldn't want to change him. If you're trying to change him, it's just getting a man that you want, a perfect man that meet all your requirements. I agree with one of the member's comment on this. Never thought of changing anyone. You can only change yourself.

Here i quote one of the example given by the forum's member. When we want to plant a flower and want the flower to face a side. Some will try to tied the plant to a side and end up it will usually dead. But some will face the flower to the sun so that the flower will grow towards the sun. Same goes to your relationship. If you want your partner to change, and you tried to force him/her to what you want him/her to be, your relation will only getting worse. But if you show your love (like sun) and when your partner can feel your love, he/she will turn to what you want easily.

Just like what i had mentioned in my previous post about unconditional love, it's really important in a long last relationship and marriage.

Lucky Me

I was trying to find out my 1st birthday photo to compare with Avryl. Flip thru lots of old photos since born, to kindergarden, primary school, secondary and dating photos.

Flip to the back of my baby photos can always see caption written by my mum. I'm such a lucky daughter in a good family with lovely parents and 2 younger brothers. My childhood was full of happiness and adventurous i can say.

Looking at primary school's photos, it was funny with those silly classmate. Although most of them are not contacting anymore, but still i can remembered their names. Lucky me to have See Yeing as my buddy from primary till now.

Secondary time was the most adventurous life i had been till now. Lucky me to meet my best friends Man Yee and Tsing May. Though May is not around Malaysia now, but whenever I feel down will still look for her. And also my bride maid and my girl's god-mum Man Yee, who always be my side when I feel bored. Lucky me that didn't missing at that time, if not today will not writing the blogs here.

Lucky me to meet my first and only boy friend. Our love story not very excited type yet it's not that smooth also. Although he was my first and only bf, unfortunately I'm not his only girl friend. But anyhow we manage to go through all the obstacles until today. We went thru lots up and down in the past 7 years. Lucky me to have a good husband like him now.

The luckiest is the birth of my princess Avryl. To have a healthy baby is really quite based on luck. So I was really glad and thanks god for giving me Avryl. And I very much feel that she is me and my darling's masterpiece. Will work hard to get few more pieces lol

Lucky me!!

My Dream House - Plan 1

Avryl is One!!

Avryl is now 1 year old! Cant believe that time flies so fast that one year had past. We didn't have a big birthday party for Avyrl, as I dun think she knows what's happening. So it will be wasted.

We just had a family dinner with both side parents, hubby's grand parents, and my best friend, Manyee with her bf.Avryl was quite naughty during the dinner, she keep standing up from her high chair. My mum helped me to cook the red eggs. Avryl likes to play with eggs. She even pealed the egg and the egg fallen to the floor.

I cant take any photo at the restaurant because of her playfulness. We have to take turns to carry her and walk everywhere in the restaurant. Yeah, she still cant walk by her own yet. My mum bought her the new shoe, but it's bit too big for her so it easily slip out from her tiny feet.

The dinner food was nice, everyone also satisfied with the food. But too busy taking care Avryl so not manage to take any photo of the delicious dishes. We went back home to cut cake after the dinner.
Before the big day, me and darling source for her cake from many cake houses. End up we have the cute bear bear butter cake from La Manila Cafe. And we decorate the house will balloons as it was Avryl's favorite. I bought some party packs and party hats too. But no one want to wear it =(To make it more fun, I had invited Daphne to bring her kids over. Luckily there's Marni, Amanda and Edward there to make the party more happening. My mum wants Avryl to stand beside the cake to take photo. Avryl was very 'co-operate' and stand there for us to take photo, though her hands very much wanted to touch the cake. lol.
We sang birthday song accompanied by Daphne, took photos, cut cakes, eat cakes while chit chatting. My mum feed Avryl the cake also, and Avyrl playing with her presents around.
I felt happy that Avryl did enjoy the party. And everyone focus on her, that's the reason I want a small party instead of a big one. I will organize a big one for the younger one next time, that time Avryl can run around, it would be fun for her also.

Seeing Avryl growing everyday really made me feel more meaningful in life. Sometimes I was really angry on her when she is naughty, but most of the time she made me smile, especially when looking on her adorable smile =)

Avryl goin to ONE

Time flies, soon Avryl will be going 1 year old. Looking back her photos when she was just born, she was so tiny.

When she was 1 month old, so fast she shrink.When she was 2 months old, she already smile always. Like her lovely smile so much.

When she was 3 months old, her hair was still so botak.
When she was 4 months old, she already can rolled over, with assistant.
When she was 5 months old, she started with solid and went to swimming pool.When she was 6 months old, she can sit with support and likes to play very much.

When she was 7 months old, she became more demanding and likes outing so much.When she was 8 months old, she travel to Genting for a one day trip and she enjoy ppl surrounding her.When she was 9 months old, her hair finally grows more and more.

When she was 10 months old, she likes to be a pretty girl with headband and nice dress.
When she is 11 months old now, she likes to read books and exploring around.

Soon, very soon, she will become 1 year old. Hope she can grows up healthy and happily. Don't wish to miss any moment with my princess. But I know, life still have to go on. I still need to work, for myself, for my family and my princess. I not only need to take care and 24-7 looking on Avyrl, there's much more in life. My darling, my business, my dreams etc. I will try my best to maximize what I can do in the limited time of my life.

Avryl making me angry

Today Avryl made me so angry that I scolded her badly. I dun wanted to show bad temper to her, but she really naughty that she dun let me clean her after shit. End up the bed sheet and my dress were dirtied with her shit.

Luckily when she woke up from nap had forgotten the scold, no showing me bad face.

Miracle not happened

Well, I know hoping for miracle is naive, but when we human can do nothing, hoping for miracle is the only thing we can.

However miracle is not always happens, it didn't happened on little baby TarnTarn. She just passed away today. So sad. One lucky thing was she got a very good family. I guess she was happy of her life, although it's too short for her.

We should treasure every moment with our family. I love all of you!!

Unlucky

I just read a blog by a mum of a one year plus baby girl, TarnTarn. The latest post showed that she was uncured and been asked to stay home to wait for the time to come. At that time, I just felt that's another unlucky case. Then I click to the first post of the blog, it was the day TarnTarn born.

I keep reading from the days she born, mid of Dec 08, wanted to know when and how she found had leukemia. From Dec 08, Jan 09, Feb 09 etc. she looked adorable. A very cute little girl that keep smiling, with a caring family too. Like other babies, she grown day by day, from lying on the bed till roll over, till sitting up, till standing... Until somewhere Aug or Sep 09, swelling was found on few parts of her body. From that onwards, doc announced that she got leukemia and she went thru so many chemo-therapies. But still you can see her smiling face even with the needles on her body everywhere.

My tears cant help when I continue reading it. Until the latest post, which was yesterday, doc told the parents to bring TarnTarn back. No point to make her more suffer with those unhelpful medicines and therapies.

It was really unlucky and sad story. The little baby just celebrated her first birthday on Dec 09, soon she will say bye bye to everyone in her life. It seems really unfair and pity. But what can we do? Besides uncontrollable crying and feeling deep sad, at the same time I felt the toughness of TarnTarn and her parents. They spent their limited time happily instead of complaining.

I dunno how to continue this post. Hopefully there's miracle happens on TarnTarn. God bless!

February 2010

First week of February just past, it's fast that time flies. Avryl is now 10 months and 1 week old. Maybe due to looking at her everyday, so dun feel much changes on her. Her little teeth at the bottom start coming out, but the progress not very fast.

Darling's birthday just past few days ago, dun have a really nice celebration with him, too bad! This few days I start to understand why my love to him is so deep so deep. Because I can feel that he loves me so much too. Besides my parents, I know that no one else will love me like he does. So I love you too, darling!

Chinese New Year coming in another week, hopefully it will be a great one. At the same time, Valentine's Day coming also. Wish to do something for darling on that day, but still have no ideas what should i do or what should i give.

We already signed the S&P for our house, but we not yet pay the down payment :p Wish that we could move to the house asap. So trying to search for all cheap and affordable furniture, electrical appliance and cheap reno as well. Must work really really hard to move to OUR house.

Next will also need to plan for Avryl's 1st year birthday, it's around the corner too.

Definition of Happy

Happy can be defined as delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing (quoted from dictionary.reference.com). For instance, you feel glad to have a good bf or hubby. You feel delighted when someone praise on you. You feel pleased when you got a very good result at school.

Can you be happy everyday? This theory come from my darling. If we are happy everyday, how we define the happy? Everyday is just same feeling, how you know that's happy? Can you understand what's 'up' without understand what's 'down'? If you never feel sad, never have the down feeling, how you know at this moment you are happy? For instance, why you feel pleased when you get a good result? Do you feel pleased when the result was bad? No, you feel sad. That's why when it turns out with good result, you will be happy!

But how come ppl always ask us to be happy everyday? Is happy everyday very important? I dun think so. Cause if you are happy everyday, you wont appreciate what you have. When there's lose, only ppl will appreciate what they have. Same as, when there's unhappy time, only we will treasure the happy moment.

Happiness is uncountable. It can says as unlimited too. But if we rate it from 1 to 10, the first day you got happiness 1, then you need more stimuli to get happiness 2, then the more and more... so until one day you found reaching maximum of happiness, what else left?

I really dun understand what's wrong for having a bad day or sad day. Life will be more interesting with ups and downs. I believe when there's down, only will comes the up.

Education

Although I like my job lots, but sometimes it still made me pissed off. In Malaysia, the people is still dunno what's education about. The quality of education in our country is so much behind of others developing countries.

I'm not going to blame our government, cause I believe that demands made quality. If we people have demands of the quality, I dun think that government will not take any actions. Our school syllabus is keep on changing. But no matter how the syllabus change, the way of teaching still the same. Now is 2010, the parents and educators still arguing whether to canned or not to canned the pupils. It's canning issue that important?

Due to lack of education, parents nowadays dun actually clear of what they want for their child. Some parents emphasis on freedom. Freedom in the sense of? You want to learn then learn, if you dun want just let go? Some parents emphasis on enjoyment. But when they found their child playful during lesson, they will start complaining and ask the teacher to be straight. Ain't it contradict? Some parents want result. But when the child complaint that teacher giving so much homework and etc., parents start telling the teacher to go slow.

When consumers are not appreciate the work, what will happen to the educator's attitude? Some private education line, the educator emphasis on the money ONLY but without bothering the quality (especially tuition center). No doubt that money is the main issue when it comes to private teaching. But they just look at the money and neglect the results. Not matured thinking I will say. If your teaching got no result, soon your students will leave and your income gone at the same time.

It's all goes hand in hand, I believe. Both the consumers and producers have the responsible to make out the best market. We, who doing education must always remember to keep the quality rather than just making money. The market will go worse if everyone just try to make money, and our children will never get a good education.

Love January

I like January... First of all, it's my birthday month. But after gave birth of Avryl, I found that birthday should really celebrate with your mum. What memory do I have on the day I born? It's actually nothing. At least not in the conscious memory. But your mum will have a very impact memory, especially for I am the first child. The experience of giving birth it's really unforgettable. Thanks for my mum's effort!!

Besides it's my birthday month, it's also the beginning of the year. Feel like all the unhappiness will go away, and all good things will be coming. So far, last year was quite a happy year. Let the little unhappiness go away too, then this year will be merrier!! Cherish!!

One more reason is there are many celebrations will be coming after January. Chinese New Year, Valentine's Day, Darling's birthday etc. So it seems like January is the happiest month of the year!

Feeling Weak

Have the symptoms of getting sick from few days ago, but cant get time to take a REAL rest... since Avryl born, I never have a sleep without waking up at night... well, cant blame anyone i know... cause I'm the one who cant let go my worries and wanted to check on her every night...

Now my body is like so weak... feeling not right for everything... I know there are tons of work waiting for me, but just cant make up my mind to work on it... feel like nothing going to be success... feel like where am I going now? It's going to have an ending?? Or it's just never ending story??

See, I'm talking craps which I also dunno what am I talking...

1st week of the year

It's been a busy week, as expected. But just too much to cope. Due to my mum working at my uncle's restaurant now, I have to take care Avryl myself every morning till 3pm. Further more need send my bro to school every afternoon. Then to my music center, the admin has resigned and so I have to do the front desk job as well as teaching.

Avryl has bad habit now. She refuse to sleep at night! She keep sitting up and looking at the door every night. Don't even want to lie down. Once lie her down, she will make noise. If you force her to lie down, then she cried out loudly... So me and darling really tired on getting her to sleep every night. I personally dun want her to sleep late. Even last time, she usually sleep 1030pm or 11pm something, I already felt guilty that I finish work late, so my poor baby has to sleep so late. I know it's not good for her to sleep later than 10pm. In fact, most of the babies of her age sleep much earlier, like 8pm or 9pm.

Now she refuse to sleep, there was one night she slept on 130am. Gosh, there's soooo late, it's bad for even an adult, nevertheless she is just a baby. I surrendered, rather let her sleep in sarong eventhough i strongly disagree to put her in the sarong. But no choice, it's better than let her sleep late which will affect her growth.

Hope I can get a solution for this problem. Really dun want my poor baby to sleep so late.

New Year 2010

It's a brand new year, 2010. Will spend more time blogging this year, as my life is going more exciting with my little princess going to be 1 year old.

Well, the biggest achievement last year of course is the arrival of my Avryl. She is now 9 months old, can crawl little bit but still dun use to it, can stand up by holding furniture or if u borrow her your arm/ shoulder, will shout "MA" when she's frust and want me to carry her, will babbling "PA" when she woke up in the morning, still not teething yet but likes to eat all kind food.

Princess latest photo on trip at Genting Highland on Christmas Day:

Next achievement is still on the way, that's my dream house. Now still in the process of getting all the loan and legal documents to be done. The house itself considered done, status is processing CF now. But i'm not sure how long would it takes to handover. Looking forward on it! Anyway we wont be moving in too soon also, due to financial problem. It's our first house, that's why many things need to buy before move in, eg. sofa, tv, fridge, washing machine and maybe bit reno of the kitchen (though i seldom cook). So most probably will come out a gift list soon lol!!

My new year wishes:

(i) Avryl grows happily and continue gain weight as before (coz recently the chart is slowing down), so she can be chubby and cute always
(ii) my dream house can be handover after CNY and before June 10 (too soon then need to pay maintainence fees even we still not moving in, too late then will delay our moving in plan)
(iii) have an oversea vacation with my darling (Avryl is still young to bring oversea, hopefully she will be good when I'm not around)
(iv) My small music school business can run smoothly, and provide me at least a thousand profit (means i need to payoff all my debt to another partner first)
and lastly,
me and all my family live happily and healthy thru out the year!!

**Happy New Year!!**