Selfish

I think everyone is selfish... Everything that we do, we do it for a purpose... and that purpose is what you want... an outcome that you want, not anyone else... even if for example, I want my daughter to become discipline, though it's for her good, but it's still what I want... so I really think that everyone is selfish., please don't tell that you are not...

I hoping so much for privacy... when I was young and staying with my parents, I cant have fully privacy... thus I always hoping for more privacy when I'm getting older and especially when I have my own family... that's why the first day talk about marry, I already suggested to have our own house... Unfortunately, our financial at that time was still unstable... so now I really wish to have my HOME

Parents in law maybe think that I don't like to stay with them... like I said, everyone is selfish... they wish that they can spend more time with their son and grandchild, but at the same time i wish that we could have our own life without letting them to see it... it maybe sounds weird... for me, it's all about privacy... I dun mean that my in law will touch my things or peek my diary or anything, but when it comes to some 'private activity', it's really inconvenient to me...

I'm selfish, I know... I always wanted too much... that's greedy at the same time... I'm trying to get what I want, yes, all, at the same time...

Day that darling not around

I think I should start to blog more... especially when darling was not around... so that he can read what had happened when he is not around...

but I seems like prefer to talk about my feelings more than things that happen... i guess that's the reason no one like to read my posts... seems like ppl love to read daily life more than others... anyhow i will just type whatever comes to my mind...

Life is hard, it's not what I always imagine... work as a boss, I have to take care my employees and that's not easy... live as a wife, I have to be caring but not superstitious... money is really a big issue in life... I have to face this... I feel so stress when the financial is not positive... yet I feel like cant do anything... sometimes I felt like giving up this business as I feel that it tied me up... without this business I might be able to earn more... that sounds silly... I know...

luckily there's still sparks of life, like Avryl my sweet heart... though sometimes she did something made me angry, but when looking to her innocence eyes my anger will gone... I guess that's why darling said I always contradict...

I wish...

I wish i could travel more... i really likes to travel, even by just looking at the photos of friends at different countries already made me happy... well, so many places i wanted to visit... the world is so big and nice, it's really a waste if we just staying in our own comfort home... but now i have baby, it really made me less chances to travel around... thinking in another way, i have children earlier when they grown up i still can travel around, right? optimistic thinking...

Like my parents, they have spent most of the time taking care 3 of us... now my father almost 60 years old, he only been to Singapore. I really must work hard to earn more, so that at least can bring my parents to oversea before i miss the chance.

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