Happy Birthday to Charmaine

To my dearest Charmaine,

Happy 1st Birthday to you. So sad that we cant be together after you born and we cant celebrate birthday with you. But I know you are happy in your world. You will have your friends to celebrate and play with you all the time. You will be laughing happily all the time. I can see that.

Now I'm having your little sister, but you will still always in my heart. You are always one of our family member, we wont forget you. I will tell your little sister about you when she grows up one day. We will all be missing you.

Although we cant celebrate all your birthday with you, but does not means we have forgotten you. Wish you be happy all the time, and I love you!

Plan may change

All the while I'm planning for a natural birth. A really natural one if possible. Means I will only go into labour when there's labour sign like contraction or show or water break. But now most probably will go for an induced labour.

I missed out this point in the previous post, Dr. Ng mentioned that due to my stillbirth history, I cannot wait till 40 weeks only deliver. He suggested to deliver on week 38. But anyway we didn't discuss much on this topic with doc yet. I will prefer to deliver slightly later if possible. Cause 38 weeks seems still small. But it also depends on my baby's size. If she is weight enough and doc think she is ready, then will still consider doc's suggestion.

I want to have a healthy baby. Feel stress recently. Worry also. I'm not sure what I can do to ensure my baby will be healthy. My mum and mother-in-law actually dun support for C-Section or induce before 40 weeks. Darling dun support C-Section also. Actually me myself also dun like to have C-Section. So Ceasarean will be out of our choice for sure. Inducing, is still under consideration and will discuss with doc bout when and how to induce during the next appointment.

Now, I just hope everything can goes well and my little princess, "you must continue grow and work hard with mummy k? We will go thru all these and have fun together soon! Mummy loves you!"

Check Up at Columbia Asia Hospital

I did my 34 weeks check up at Columbia Asia Hospital yesterday with Dr. Ng Soon Pheng. The hospital was located at Bandar Puteri, Puchong. It's a quite new hospital. It looks clean and nice overall although it's compound is not very big.

I had made the appointment in advanced, so by the time i reached just need to register and do some common checking like urine test & weight checking then it's my turn. The doc looks quite young, around 30+ or 40. He is the only doc who asked more questions on my previous still birth case (so far went for 3 gynae for this pregnancy). After understand my previous records and health details, then he did the scan of my baby.

The ultrasound machine is a 4D scanning machine. I'm not sure what's the FOUR D, but I managed to see my baby's face. She (well, we actually forgot to ask the gender again) looks so much like my hubby, with a big nose and the lips also like him. The scanning was quite long, due to my little one keep moving around and doc unable to do some measurements. According to doc, everything is fine. Here's my little one's first photo, all of us agreed that she is ugly... hahaha
After the scanning, Dr. Ng said due to my previous history he will automatically put me into high risk pregnancy. He mentioned 3 things that I need to do and consider. 1st, I need to count the baby's movement every morning from 9am. It must at least has 10 movements before 6pm, or else I have to go to hospital. 2nd, he will put me in baby monitoring on the next visit to monitor baby's heart beats. 3rd, he wants be to consider whether to have natural birth or C-section.

Well, I never wanted and never think about having C-Section. So was quite shock by his suggestion. I keep asking the reasons that I need to go for C-Section. According to doc, C-Section is the safest way to deliver a healthy baby. Wherease during natural birth, many things can happen to the baby including oxigen cut off. So due to my history, he suggested me to go for a C-Section.

After leaving the hospital, me and darling keep discussing bout the birth methods. Darling was not really satisfied with the doc that keep promoting on Ceasarean. Overall the hospital, nurses and doc are nice to us, polite and caring. The only concern of my hubby was the doc keep promoting Ceasarean. For the delivery fees, normal delivery will be around RM2700 - RM3000, C-Section will be around RM4700-5000. Compare with Sunway Medical Center, normal delivery will be around RM3000-4000, C-Section will be around RM5500-6500. For normal delivery, not really much different, but for Ceasarean that's the dif.

Discuss and discuss, I decided to have natural birth still. I really have no intention to go for C-Section at all. And I believe as long as I have the strong will to give birth in natural, then I can do it. For the hospital choice, most probably will be going to Columbia Asia. It's so much nearer and even accidentally I have to go for Ceasearean also not so expensive.

So my next check up will be in 2 weeks later. Hopefully everything will go smooth.

Late Survey

I'm now in week 33 of my pregnancy, meaning there's less than 2 months time I will be going to deliver my little princess. All the while I did my prenatal check up at Sunway Medical Center. But yesterday only I found out that their charges for delivery is quite expensive. There's info that their normal deliver charge had increased to around 6k from Feb 09 onwards. That's far from my expectation for a normal delivery. What if, touch wood, I need a C-sec? Then will cost me 10k?? That's out of my budget.

Further more, it seems like the hospital still under expansion reno, there will only has 1 single room available. I'm actually a quite dependent person that always need my hubby to accompany me. So i definitely want a single room so that darling can stay with me for that particular night.

I got some info from forum with quite a good review of Columbia Asia Hospital at Bandar Puteri. Their charges is around 3k for normal delivery, even C-sec also around 5k. That's really more affordable. Due to financial and room facilities prob, after discuss with my darling we decided to pay a visit to the gynae Dr. Ng(who had good review from the forum also) at Columbia Asia on Mon.

Besides the financial and room prob, actually there's another concern also, my usual gynae Dr Jason will be away on holiday from this 30th till 9th April. My due date is on the 24 April. It means if I'm going to deliver 2 or more weeks earlier, Dr Jason will not be there. That's why I need to get another gynae. One more advantage to choose Columbia Asia is that the hospital is so near to my house, just 5 minutes drive will do and no need to worry bout traffic jam.

Thus, with all the above reasons Columbia Asia most probably will be our choice.

Underwear

If your man had an affair with other woman/ women, are you going to forgive him? How far can you accept of having an affair? Don't worry, it's not happen to me, yet.

Here I came out with this example. Your man is just like your underwear, it's so close and intimate to you that you probably wont like to share with other women. But one day, your underwear was accidentally wore by another woman, who knows for what reason. Let say you didn't find out in the 1st moment and you still wear it like usual. But after sometimes you found out that was worn by others once in the time, will you just straight throw the underwear to the dustbin and never wear it again? Or since it was just once in the time and was happened accidentally, some more you found out after quite sometimes, so you will just clean properly the underwear and continue wear it as usual?

What if you immediately found out the underwear was wore by another woman? Will you still wear that underwear? Imagine that's your beloved underwear, that so suit you. If you cant accept that someone was wearing it before, will you just throw it away? But that's your beloved underwear, good in quality (at least you believe it quality's good) and you've been wearing for years. Maybe you feel hard to throw away, then you will just keep in your drawer for memory purpose but never want to wear it anymore?

The examples are just that if the underwear was wore by another woman (one), not women (two or more). Think of it, what will you do? Well, for me, I guess no matter it was wore by one woman or two women or even more, and no matter I find out immediately or after sometimes, it's still the same answer. I will throw it to the dustbin and never wear it again. There's plenty of underwear in this world, who knows I cant get a better one?

One more question, I don't understand why there's women who don't mind wearing others' underwear?